I'm soooo bored. I'm in no mood to do my art or Humans. Steals all my energy. >.< Mdm Lim probably wont like it anw. All my confidence is gone. Anw..

Tomorrow's Youth Day. No school. What am I going to do then? Geez. I'm so bored I almost wish there was school. Been thinking about him the entire day. Sheesh. I gotta stop that. Anw, I wish I was with him now. I wish I hadnt made that awful mistake on hating him, avoiding him, shunning him. Then things wouldnt be like this right now. I wish I could just be with him tomorrow. We dont have to be together or anything. I just wanna see him. As friends. Sigh. And here is Beaver Ow telling me his wisdom tooth hurts.

I'm probably meeting him for lunch on Weds. I dont know if its next Weds or next, next Weds. I wonder what I'd do or feel when I see him. I just hope I dont break down in front of him upon seeing him. I probably wouldnt be able to handle a one-on-one lunch with him. I'll ask Isabelle along. That will lessen the tension. But it depends if she wants to. Oh well.

Everytime I shower or before I sleep I'd think of him. Every hour I'd think of him at least once. And all those thoughts I'd keep them, store them, and wait till dark or when I get into the shower, to pour everything out in the form of tears. I'm not going to cry in front of Sherlyn or Xiu Feng or Isabelle or Gabrielle anymore. I know it must be really awkward for them and it was rather embarrassing for me. I dont want to put them in an awkward position. And Gab ar, dont be crazy, ok? All of us are friends. You are always quiet so we talk among ourselves. If you dont like that we can stop. No problem. I mean, I know how you feel. Trust me, I've been there. ;-)